✿L.I.F.E.I.S.S.U.C.K✿

why always tell me everything will be fine ,there is the light waiting for me in the end and i just need to wait!!
i must wait until when??
it is just lie!!i am tired with my life,why people around me always be happy and just me not feel like that, i lie when i am happy because i never feel like that,in real world i am not good in make friends so noone want be with me,so i just find friend from virtual world and it's suck!
i did i ever have a boyfriend??how can i could have boyfriend even noone want be with me ???hahha..
and of course that is suck too,i can't tell how i feel to other people so they always think that i am ok and happy.

everyday will be same day,wake up,go work and back to my boarding house,stay there alone and sit front of my pc ,have nothing to do and think why my life like this?
everyday always think about die,i hope i could die soon,even i am here, but many people think that i am not,what point of living?
many shit happen in my life and tired to wait if everything will be ok,i have been waiting for long time and until when i must wait that!!!!

Miss him a lot.. but i noe his not for me.. His said love but his LIAR...
ARghhhhhhhhhhhh
really down...
Wen i hurt, i hurt deeply...
Uhhhhhh...